Am I losing my mind?

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I am not a person that struggles with being alone — in fact, I rather enjoy it. I like to schedule in a regular alone day where I can be by myself and my thoughts. I find it a great way to refresh myself, and recommend to others. The only time that this is not healthy is either when I am feeling down, or when I am sick. I am generally not someone who does well being sick — I get very whiny and attention seeking.

As I was dealing with the reality of being at the Ayurvedic retreat, and being sick, being alone was starting to bother me. Thankfully, one of my reliefs was being able to ‘talk’ with friends — talk in the sense of communication via messaging platforms and Skype. It was always a comfort of familiar voices and cadences even while far away from them.

The danger of being alone with one’s thoughts is that one loses a sense of perspective. One can cycle oneself into a relentlessly erosive thought spiral. It requires a level of self-awareness to not slide into that whirlpool — something that is a problem when I am sick.

So I have learnt over the years, that I have to – a must – reach out to my cheerleaders and enablers to provide perspective, focus, and direction. They provide a check point to me to validate and corroborate my thoughts and feelings. They pull me out of the whirlpool, and often prevent me from even getting into it.

I am not going to name names, but you know who you are. Thanks once again.

(What’s the difference between cheerleaders and enablers? Fodder for a future post)